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Ruined Witness

I am imperfect.

I will let you down.

I won't always be here when you need me.

I won't always say the right things at the right times.

If you look closely at my life, you will see anger.

You will see fear.

You will see selfishness, pride, greed, insecurity.

You will see failure.

You will see me 'ruin my witness' countless times.

Please don't put me on a pedestal, because I'll surely tumble off and break.

In fact, I'm already broken.

My humanity is scored with a thousand cracks and scars and gouges.

It's ugly, and my natural desire is to hide my imperfections, to deny their existence.

But how can I hide something so hideous?

How can I deny something so obvious?

The hard truth is, I can't.

So I've stopped trying.

My 'righteousness', my 'perfection', will never be enough, so I'm simply allowing myself to be covered by the redeeming grace of God.

And each day, step-by-step, God's helping me look a little bit more like Him.


Advice to My Fellow Bloggers

Am I truly qualified to write this post?

My blog has what, 11 followers?

I get a comment about once every other blue moon, and I think it's safe to say that my little blog is hardly at the top of any popularity list.

So no, probably not the most qualified.

However, I do read a lot of blogs, and I do write a lot of blogs, and I have made {and hopefully learned from} a great many blogging mistakes...and that's got to be worth something, right?

In a spirit of humility, I'll share a few hard-learned tidbits of advice with whomever decides to read this.

No worries, I won't take much of your time.

Assess your reasons for blogging.
I blog for enjoyment, and because blogging helps me relax and process my thoughts. Journaling would do the same thing, but my writing gets sloppy when I journal. The knowledge that somebody, somewhere might read my blog forces me to keep polishing my writing and correcting bad habits. I don't blog because I'm insecure and I need a million c…